2 Year Diaversary!!
Woah, two years with Diabetes! I have so many thoughts but I don't know how to type them all out haha. This past year has been crazy!! I've learned a ton, I hit my A1C mark, I wrote a 10 page paper for English class about my Diabetes Story, and I'm still alive haha.
This year was tough as well. I remember one day in particular, it was the day that I was going to have my Endocrinology Appointment. I had already been dreading the day for a while, because I was scared that my A1C was going to be bad. Anyway, that morning I had to change my pump site, and then I went to school. I was sitting in Seminary, and my pump site was seriously stinging. And then I realized it had partially pulled out of my skin and it was bleeding. So I had to leave, go change my pump site, and it took everything in me not to just burst into tears on my drive home. I know that sounds stupid, but it was just a hard day haha. And then I went to my endocrinologist appointment, actually terrified. AND I HIT MY A1C MARK! And my doctor told me that I was doing really well and he only had to adjust one little thing.
Another day, I got to school and in first period I ran out of insulin. How in the world did I forget to change my pump site? Don't ask me haha. I was really scared that my numbers would be all over the place, but you would not believe. My numbers stayed in range all day. MIRACLES HAPPEN PEOPLE.
But really, the biggest thing I learned this year, is that, when you try your hardest and you still fall short, God will ALWAYS make up the difference.
And I know I wouldn't have made it this far without the greatest friends and fam. I'm just way thankful for the cute girls in my ceramics class who will rage about Diabetes with me, and my co workers who make great diabetes jokes, but are also there to help me out when I need it. And this also needs to be a celebration of my parents, because they put up with so much, they make sure to pick up my prescriptions and they are my biggest supporters.
And I'm still learning. I'm still trying to figure out a way to separate my worth from the numbers that I feel I'm defined by. And I've definitely hit Diabetes burnout before, and I will admit that sometimes I don't test my blood sugar or give myself insulin at school because I'm afraid of being judged. And I still get disappointed with myself when I get bad blood sugar numbers, but I guess the good thing is that I have the rest of my life to make peace with this disease haha.
So life isn't perfect, and if you're struggling with something, you can know your not alone. And God works miracles, and if you try your hardest, he will make up the difference.
So here's to a new year of Diabetes, I sure hope it's the best one yet haha.
This year was tough as well. I remember one day in particular, it was the day that I was going to have my Endocrinology Appointment. I had already been dreading the day for a while, because I was scared that my A1C was going to be bad. Anyway, that morning I had to change my pump site, and then I went to school. I was sitting in Seminary, and my pump site was seriously stinging. And then I realized it had partially pulled out of my skin and it was bleeding. So I had to leave, go change my pump site, and it took everything in me not to just burst into tears on my drive home. I know that sounds stupid, but it was just a hard day haha. And then I went to my endocrinologist appointment, actually terrified. AND I HIT MY A1C MARK! And my doctor told me that I was doing really well and he only had to adjust one little thing.
Another day, I got to school and in first period I ran out of insulin. How in the world did I forget to change my pump site? Don't ask me haha. I was really scared that my numbers would be all over the place, but you would not believe. My numbers stayed in range all day. MIRACLES HAPPEN PEOPLE.
But really, the biggest thing I learned this year, is that, when you try your hardest and you still fall short, God will ALWAYS make up the difference.
And I know I wouldn't have made it this far without the greatest friends and fam. I'm just way thankful for the cute girls in my ceramics class who will rage about Diabetes with me, and my co workers who make great diabetes jokes, but are also there to help me out when I need it. And this also needs to be a celebration of my parents, because they put up with so much, they make sure to pick up my prescriptions and they are my biggest supporters.
And I'm still learning. I'm still trying to figure out a way to separate my worth from the numbers that I feel I'm defined by. And I've definitely hit Diabetes burnout before, and I will admit that sometimes I don't test my blood sugar or give myself insulin at school because I'm afraid of being judged. And I still get disappointed with myself when I get bad blood sugar numbers, but I guess the good thing is that I have the rest of my life to make peace with this disease haha.
So life isn't perfect, and if you're struggling with something, you can know your not alone. And God works miracles, and if you try your hardest, he will make up the difference.
So here's to a new year of Diabetes, I sure hope it's the best one yet haha.
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