A New Happy

I've always had a perception growing up, that happiness was at the end of the tunnel. It was after I got that part in the play, and then it jumped to once I heard the applause after the show was over, and then onto the next thing right after. I've always been one who looks forward to the next best thing, because in my mind, I see myself happy in those situations in the future. And I've missed out on a lot of life doing this. Do you ever pray for things, and you want them so badly, and then all of sudden you have them, and you don't even realize it because you are already praying for the next best thing? Yeah, me too. As I thought back on my day today, I realized that I have things that I once wanted SO BADLY, and I haven't really truly appreciated it, because I've been waiting for the next best thing. And it hit me. Right now, I am happy. I have what I asked for. God has been good to me, and this is the happiness that I pictured in my head. We just usually miss the happiness, because we aren't living in the moment. Lots of things are going to change in the next few weeks over here. And that makes me really scared, but it's also made me stand back and truly look at my life right now. I have so much that I once wished for. It's actually amazing! I'm finding a new happiness. It's not a happiness that I picture in my head, looming far in the future. It's a new happiness that I can feel right here. Right now. And it's honestly so much more fulfilling than the happiness we think we will one day receive.