lost

The one word that has come to mind lately is lost. I've lost myself, my interests, my confidence, my smile, my motivation. And though I may seem smiley on the outside, it's not quite the same under the surface. I feel like this has all stemmed from the recent urgency to figure out the future. One day during the summer before I started high school I was sitting on the couch with my brother and his girlfriend as they told me that high school would be the shortest years of my life and I just laughed, but now I'm here registering for Senior year, just feeling lost. I've wished away so many days waiting for better ones ahead, and now I'm here and I'm absolutely terrified. Everyone I talk to seems to have everything figured out. All my senior friends are taking all of these AP classes, college classes, taking MATC, pushing themselves, getting scholarships. But what if I don't feel like pushing myself. Getting myself out of bed and to school is already a struggle. And I'm not saying this like any normal teenager would about school. I work hard at school, and I have a 4.0 GPA, but I absolutely hate school. And I don't know why. I just have no clue what I want to do in the future, and talking to my councilor just stresses me out, because she wants to help me figure things out, BUT I HAVE NO CLUE. Someone who has their future figured out, please just help me. Everywhere I look there are kids in scrubs going to MATC or internships and kids wearing student council jackets or repping their sports team gear, but I just don't know where I fit in to any of this. The only thing I ever want to do is bake cookies for people, honestly haha. The only thing that I can count on to make me happy is to see other people happy, and that's why I always put on a smile, or I laugh really loud, or I make cookies for people. But I don't know how to make that into a career, and I've realized lately that no matter how kind or how hard you try to make others happy, you will eventually strike out, and how do you keep going after that? How do I know if I'm even making a difference?  I don't know where this is even going anymore. I just want advice.
And I'm not trying to offend anyone by this post! I'm sorry this turned into a really deep post, and it wasn't the usual happy post. Just hoping maybe I'm not the only one feeling this.