I Feel Blessed.

This past week had a couple ups and downs. Earlier in the week I was looking at old pictures and reading old letters and I just lost it. I felt so lonely. I missed my brother and his girlfriend, and my other brother. This spiraled into a crying pity party. And I felt ashamed. I felt like in that moment Heavenly Father was ashamed of me, because he has given me so much, and I was sitting there feeling bad for myself. So I prayed, and I definitely got reassurance!
My cousins came up to stay over night last week and I was excited, what I didn't really realize until later was that, that was an answer to my prayer. I was missing my brothers so much, and I absolutely hate getting up in the morning by myself. But on that day my uncle happened to be up when I was getting ready for school and I got to talk to him just like I used to talk to my brothers before school. I'm so very thankful that I could have that time to just talk to my awesome uncle. I know Heavenly Father is aware of me.
Another answer came through General Conference! All of the talks were so amazing, but Elder Hollands talk really stood out. I think we all feel like we fall short the majority of the time, and I have felt that so much more lately. He said "Please remember tomorrow and all the days after that, that the Lord blesses those who want to improve, who accept the need for commandments and try to keep them, who cherish Christlike virtues and strive to the best of their ability to acquire them. If you stumble in that pursuit, so does everyone; call on the Savior to help you and keep going."
Another blessing came from my cute friend Kelsey asking me if I wanted to make cookies with her to give to people in our neighborhood. We had such a fun time making them, and then we took some to a family in our neighborhood that I haven't seen in forever. And we walked in their house, and they were standing on chairs trying to fix their chandelier and they asked us if we could help them, and this story may not sound interesting at all, but it was so funny and we were all laughing and happy, and it made me so happy going over there, and we talked with them like no time had passed at all. And all I can say about all of this is how blessed I feel. My life is far from perfect and I cry and I'm not always happy, but I know one thing is for sure. I have a Heavenly Father who loves me and is always looking out for me. I feel so so blessed to live this life.