Week Four February 2016

I'm going to be completely honest. I did not want to write this week. This week was H A R D. Have you ever held so much stress and anxiety in and then just exploded. Welcome to my week. I am struggling with school. Not really grade wise, but every other aspect. I am trying to learn to drive which scares me beyond anything. Not to mention the car I get to drive is a stickshift, and I still need to take drivers ed, because I turn 16 in May, but we don't know the times or our plans. I miss Jon and Sydney like I have never missed anybody before, and I feel like I have no friends. My blood sugar has been the worst that it's ever been and I have an appointment with my Endocrinologist on Tuesday and I just don't want him to be disappointed in me. I decided to help plan New Beginnings for my ward, plus I'm trying to earn a Congressional Award, which I haven't even started yet. Registration is in three days and my schedule next year is brutal. I have blog post drafts just sitting around because I can't even get my thoughts together. I'm not telling you this so you will feel sorry for me. I'm telling you this because I want you to know that I am Human and hard weeks like these happen. And that's okay. I actually think it is necessary to break down and cry sometimes. It is unhealthy to keep all your feelings inside. And instead of me telling you about each day like I normally do, I'm going to list some things that I am grateful for this past week.

1. Fresh air, sunshine, and blue skies.
This week we had beautiful weather. It got up to like 58 degrees and that makes me so happy. Seriously, go for a walk outside this week. It can really better your mood.
2. The boy who sits next to me in Seminary and my sweet friends who drive me everywhere.
Although, the boy who sits next to me in Seminary probably thinks I'm the actual Molly Mormon (because I know my Scripture Masteries and I bring extra pens for him because he never brings his own;), he still offers to help me with so much. Which really means a lot. Also, the cute girls in my ward seriously do so much for me! Whenever I need a ride they are on top of it. They are the sweetest.
3. My overalls.
Yes I am so thankful for them, I absolutely don't care what anyone else thinks about them haha.
4. Missionary work and the scriptures.
The things that missionaries go out and do are amazing! Plus when Jon heard that I had a bad week he sent me scriptures to read. My brothers are the coolest honestly. Plus Sydney emails me every week and sends me hand written letters and they truly make me feel so special. I just love them.
5. My cute Pincock Fam.
I just love that I get to live so close to my Aunt and Uncle and Cousins. For my uncle, who sometimes might be embarrassed by me and my face paint, but still gives me hugs in public. And my Aunt who tries to help me make friends and takes cute selfies with me. And the cutest cousins in the world, who always make me feel 3000x better about myself. I seriously scored big in the family department.
6. My parents.
Because as much as we don't get along very much, I still love them. I have a really hard time expressing my love, so I apologize. Thank you for always treating me like a Princess.
7. Nuts about Berries Salad from Zupas.
Okay, why have I never tried this before? If you haven't tried it before, you better get your butt to Zupas asap. Wow. Honestly 10/10

So, although this week was pretty rocky, I still had some fantastic times. Just remember that it is okay to not be okay, but don't forget to still count your blessings. Okay cheesiness over, thank you to everyone who helped me out this week. You are all gems.

All smiles, because it was finally Friday.

Showed up to the game, the only one wearing face paint.

Not even worried about it.

Cute aunt Tiffy.

My favorite boys after their amazing basketball games!

These kids are going to do so well when they get older!

My overalls. So happy honestly.